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md. amirul helmi
20/10/93
music enthusiast.
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Abi
Amirah
Andy
Arshad
Azmee
Budiman
Chao Yan
CuiTian
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Fadzil
Hafeeza
Hisyamuddin
Jesslyn
KaiXin
KauLahAlfi
Li Shan
Luqman
Marilyn
Mubin
Nicholas
XinYing
YanRu
CCAC

props to.

the tube.

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the joint.

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Sunday, November 22, 2009

Ropes won't turn to strings when we have internet and handphones

hmmm... i actually wanted to post something about the prom yesterday (it's already sunday)
there is a lot to talk about really
the food, the atmosphere, the joy of meeting your friends again before we go our separate ways
kuang shao's supreme manoeuvre which caught everyone by surprise
the finest finale in which almost everyone flocked to the dance floor, dancing their hearts out
the countless photos taken
the walk to the singapore river (was it the singapore river?? i never went there before)
actually there was a plan to go somewhere, but due to unforeseen circumstances, we ended up just sitting by the river
well, at least i for once was able to be there
i'm actually at a loss for words
i can't really express myself much regarding that special event
all i can say is i that i appreciate the times we had, and i hope we'll stay in touch for as long as possible, before the inevitable
so till then, keep answering your calls and reply to your messages peeps!

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 12:46 AM

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Saturday, November 14, 2009

Just like any other graduate would... or perhaps should...

hmm... i don't really know how to put this...
anyways, yesterday was the end of a gruelling three-week stint in sitting for our big 'O's
it didn't really end the way i expected
whereby everyone would be ecstatic and going wild in celebration, some maybe even crying tears of joy
none of it happened.
the only special thing that i noticed was the two cakes sitting on the table in front of the library
thank you anyone who tried to make it special
everyone seemed stolid and weren't really making much ruckus
except when they were in front of the staff room, approaching mdm asmida for their prom tickets
perhaps everyone had their systems jammed at 'zombie mode'
or they were fearful that they wouldn't do well for the seemingly tough chemistry paper 1
or no one had the intention to celebrate
and as a member of 4/7 '09, i had the feeling that someone would give the call for a celebration
and once again, no one did.
then again, it would be highly demanding, and stupidly selfish, of me to ask for anyone of us to do it, and not attempting to do it myself
anyways, i'm hoping that the prom night would be something spectacular
we're gonna make it happen
because we're gonna make sure that our $70 doesn't go to waste

despite the seemingly dreary morning, my afternoon turned out to be, well, interesting
had a little conversation with this, erm, australian girl, who is, erm, yeah, definitely beautiful
actually, she was the one who approached me after noticing my freaking long name
after much spamming on each other's wall, i noticed that there was actually a chatroom
so, we started chatting
being the shy and conservative me, i just said a little 'hi' and from there, we started
actually, she was the one who started asking me questions
(yes, i'm a total loser when it comes to girls)
however, she wasn't really the usual blonde and pretty girl one would expect
she was, well, something unique
and she made me feel special too
a very interesting sort
ok, i think i should stop here
i suppose no one is really interested anyway
well, till then i guess

"when we're together, it's elation i've never known
when we're together i've got so much to give"

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 9:11 PM

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Friday, October 09, 2009

Ties; I'll have this accessory for life

so, i guess i've broken a promise to myself
why?? because i'm blogging, when i should be shifting my ass on the chair on my left and start studying (i'm now on my bro's laptop and in his seat)
perhaps i should just take some time to express myself as i, as well as many others, reach the final chapters of secondary life
also, this is a good time to brush up on my english that is fast deteriorating after weeks of abandoning my blog
in addition, this is something to be remembered, so i'd certainly have to blog about it, for i am unable to remember all these as time passes
and i'll try to keep it short.

it does sound seemingly stupid to graduate before taking your final exam
yet again, probably it's ok, because it's called GCE 'O' Level Examinations, and not Secondary School LEAVING EXAMINATIONS
anyway, in the last day of school, we see the predicted
we laughed, we smiled, we cried, and we said our goodbyes (but it ain't the final one!!!)
we said our farewell speeches, and once again, i failed to fully express myself
i doubt i seemed sincere in the eyes of many, but i did say all those things with a heavy heart, though i did not cry, for i have forgotten how
it is certain that on days like these, we wouldn't see any emotional deviations, but everyone would definitely have different ways of expressing them
the years i've shared with the class is truly an experience of a lifetime
hundreds of days being spent together were full of meaning, and the joy of it can never be erased
though there were times where we fell apart, with the help and support of each other, we all managed to pull ourselves together
and like i said, though this class is not perfect, i would be lying if i didn't say that this is what i perfectly wanted

this isn't goodbye. there is no goodbye when you believe.

"if i turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me
sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone"

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 9:53 PM

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Sunday, September 06, 2009

No rest

thursday's booster session was, well, a real booster for me
helped me get back on my feet
or perhaps for once, i got on my feet
with the ever-joyous andrea shooting out hundreds or thousands of words per minute
i was left with only vague memories of the session, but lots to do and think about
went back home smiling throughout the journey, yet gritting my teeth, fearing that i won't succeed
also got really inspired to do mindmaps
even went to purchase some fanciful-coloured pens just now
just hoping that time remains on my side
actually, i'm the one who should make a move and stay on time's side
besides waking me up from my slumber, the talk also helped me in detailing my targets
i know it might be insane to many, but i'm aiming a 6
God knows where i'm headed to, but i'm certain i desire to achieve that

unfortunately for me, friday broke my heart
my head was at its closest to willingly bang on the wall
my L1R5 was 18.
damn.
i was just starting to climb the ladder when it toppled over, again, leaving me lying face down on the floor
school is a head-maker, yet a heartbreaker
or maybe it's the teachers, most of them who pretty much defines motivation as fear to boosts the spirits their students, but are actually draining the motivation instead
"and the plane goes down, again..."

maybe it's time i let operation Faust takes its place
i might be on hiatus, well, from posting on this blog of course
but being utterly weak in resisting the urge of the worthless short-term desires that merely bring joy, i doubt that the blog will be free from new posts within the next two months
but i'm determined not to end up on the wrong side of this operation and be an upset
the pimples, the mucus and the puke won't make me falter
kiss and conquer.

"we don't know, where we're going
but we know, that we're getting there!"

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 2:12 AM

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Friday, August 28, 2009

What the hell am i thinking??

i have a goal
in order to reach that goal, i need to swim
in order for me to swim, i need knowledge and skills
as i learn, i feel myself more prepared to face the ocean
with my confidence, i dipped my foot into the water
that was the start of my journey

with my strokes, i propel forward, opposing the motion of the waves
the waves vary by the day, so does the man
success and glory, a milestone ahead
failure and misery, no reason to regret
the trident in my face, another point to prove
claps of thunder shakes the sea, the outlook seems bleak
but Conscious says the mist is made-believe

in due time, i rest as i should, like every person would
yet complacency delays my time to move
as i tread the waters, i find myself drifting towards the vast unknown
where the quitters lay dead, where the stench keeps me awake
plagued by laziness, reeked of complacency
paralyzed i became, only the eyes surfacing the water
fears flocked towards me during my final breath
undesirable as it is, but is this the end??

when all hope seems lost, a short spasm stabs my back
it is the calling, time to get back on track

to prevent repetitions of such events, maybe it's time to just swim
only aim should accompany, and nothing else should matter
i think it's best that i replicate Faust now,
but keeping in mind that everything's temporary
my desire must be precise, the rest should be steered away
this risk should release much burden, but it won't assure things
in the crossroads, in the water i stay afloat
the clock is ticking, the heart is racing
in this final sprint, the routes i shall question
for what it's worth, is it worth it?

"every skyline beats in my chest
somewhere between love and sadness
this is our fate, this is our test
we ride in the mouth of madness"

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 10:13 PM

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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

A smile, a grin, and another cloud comes in...

"people don't like you, is it??"
never thought that a question so poorly constructed would sound so harsh
my vision blurried, a probable jet black stare on the pages of the magazine
i could almost imagine my heart being swallowed by darkness
as i masked my inner feelings with a wry smile
i could only helplessly think about the true opinions of my...
well...companions...
damn...

"well don't talk about it;
write it down but don't ask for help.
i can't be honest with even myself.
did you ever wish you were...
did you ever wish you were...
did you ever wish you were somebody else?"

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 9:48 PM

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Thursday, August 06, 2009

Back from the dead??

apologies to whoever who has been patiently waiting for another post to appear
actually, nothing much really happened throughout the weeks
except for consecutive days of meeting insects on weird occasions
and a tuesday midnight in the toilet with a bloody big mosquito-like creature, about the size of my palm, which i squashed between a folded newspaper
that creature was like some kind of mutated creature from the sink or something
(think ninja turtles)
its legs could not even support the weight of the body. how weird...
i wanted to pee, and that creature probably wanted to suck
well, maybe opposites do attract

besides than, been kinda busy during the exam period
exam, sleep, eat, bro's laptop, study, sleep, repeat
and that is life, people
that is definitely life...

well, at least today marks the end of prelims
which is a huge sigh of relief for us sec4 express unitians
throughout the week, i kinda kept to myself most of the time
early morning rituals of listening to some nasyid
errm, i don't really know how to explain this type of music
but it basically keeps me calm, so my mind would be free from unnecessary thoughts during the exam
usually went straight home after the papers
and probably the only girl i talked to was xinying
and that was merely a few sentences on some of the days
call me sexist, call me anti-social
but yeah, that was what happened
kinda creepy though, yet nothing to worry about

today was pretty much a good day
played floorball to get rid of all the stress 'residues'
then, went out for a moment, tried to find something for ibu for her birthday
but to no avail
well, at least d cake was bought, by sis
dinner at around 8+, as usual
had a whopping feast
spaghetti, roasted chicken, keropok lekor which my eldest sis bought from terengganu
the strawberry ice-cream cake
tummy filled to the brim, without a doubt

well, that was pretty much my day
happy birthday ibu!
thanks for all that you've ever done for the family
love you!
and also, happy birthday mally's mom!
(mally's mom, has got it goin on...)

and this is finished right on midnight.

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 10:58 PM

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Saturday, July 11, 2009

Damn... another gun is pointed at my face...

school life's getting a little more miserable these days
the pressure that is exerted on me is getting a little out of hand
teacher's are getting much more unreasonable these days
well, they've always been this way
work's piling up and my ass won't stay on my chair for long
the chair isn't that comfortable anyway
worksheets being propelled into the face of our tables
marker ink jets out of its cartidge and onto the whiteboard on the side,
exposing a series of numbers and alphabets which instantly weakens our defence
meanwhile, we half-heartedly fight back with our pens, foolscap papers and a whole lotta brain juice

well, we can say "this is life"
or we can say "fuck life"
or we can lambaste the teachers and singapore's education system
but it's not gonna change anything
what matters is whether we can last till they cease fire at the end of the 'o' levels
and then we're gonna face another breed of soldiers the next year, and so on
everyone's got a war to fight
and for us singaporean students, it's a road war
whoever gets shot gets left behind!

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 1:57 PM

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Sunday, June 28, 2009

It's wrong. It's what i wanted. Well, no regrets then.

well, talk about wrong timing...
went shopping just now, when most of my work is still left undone
also spent pretty much all the money i had
well, it was probably the only time possible, so i had to risk everything else for this opportunity

anyway, went to novena with bro
bought an adidas jacket for $61
finally got what i wanted, and needed
then headed to orchard, to far east plaza
bro bought two tees, one for $24, another for $25
i bought one Threadless(brand name) tee at $25, which was necessary to fill my closet as i'm experiencing a wardrobe malfunction
bro persuaded me to buy because he said that even if i finished my money, i'd be satisfied with what i'm doing with the money
which was pretty much true
no regrets buying it:D

well, now i'm losing time
got a hell lotta work to do, not enough time
oh well, it's my choice after all, so i'm gonna face my own consequences
no more going out for you, boy
focus, focus...

"time we don't have, but has been given"

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 12:00 AM

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Thursday, June 18, 2009

Slightly better...

was at my uncle's house in johor from sunday to tuesday
well, this time, i had a bit more fun than usual
at least there was something to do this time

sunday
reached there at around 11am
breakfast, ate 3 and a half pieces of prata which was way bigger (and cheaper) than what you can usually find
took a nap, then headed to the nearest 7-11 store
actually, i did nothing much on this day

monday
had bbq at night
couldn't stuff in much, i wonder why

tuesday
this day was much more fun
went to the river at gunung berlumut
a long 2+ hour ride
the place was actually closed, yet people are still allowed to go in
it's because the contractors fled and abandoned their renovation project
and it's been 1 and a half years
sheesh, hopeless...
anyway, we went to the river
IT WAS FREEZING COLD!!!
yet it was pretty fun
threw some pebbles, and mine skipped 4 times!
hehe, kampung boy
baby ammar was also enjoying himself
(he's my cousin's son, which makes him...
i dunno wad's it called...)
no pics of d cute lil' him, haiz...
so, left the river shivvverrring, change clothes, went off

we were heading to restoran my friend
everytime i heard my father say that name, i kept thinking
"my father has a friend who owns a restaurant here??"
"who's this friend??"
when we arrived, i laughed hysterically
standing proudly on a pole, the board bears the name in neon pink and blue,
'RESTORAN MY FRIEND'
WTF??!!
had a hefty dinner
tom yam, sambal stingray, tofu in oyster sauce, sambal squid, kangkong (though i hate veggies, i find this quite irresistable, and delicious as well)
at night, headed to kip mart, adults did a last minute shopping
when we left, i realized everyone hadn't stocked up on bubble/chewing gum supply
oh well...
headed back home at around 11, reached home around 12.30
slept, slacked the rest of yesterday

missed gym session today
excuses:
-woke up late
-no one to tag along with
-was feeling a bit sick in the morning
haiz...

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 9:33 PM

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