music is my breakfast...

the band member.

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md. amirul helmi
20/10/93
music enthusiast.
Try to figure out the rest of me.

band affiliates.

Abi
Amirah
Andy
Arshad
Azmee
Budiman
Chao Yan
CuiTian
Eugene
Fadzil
Hafeeza
Hisyamuddin
Jesslyn
KaiXin
KauLahAlfi
Li Shan
Luqman
Marilyn
Mubin
Nicholas
XinYing
YanRu
CCAC

props to.

the tube.

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the joint.

band history.

July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
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October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
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May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009

Friday, August 28, 2009

What the hell am i thinking??

i have a goal
in order to reach that goal, i need to swim
in order for me to swim, i need knowledge and skills
as i learn, i feel myself more prepared to face the ocean
with my confidence, i dipped my foot into the water
that was the start of my journey

with my strokes, i propel forward, opposing the motion of the waves
the waves vary by the day, so does the man
success and glory, a milestone ahead
failure and misery, no reason to regret
the trident in my face, another point to prove
claps of thunder shakes the sea, the outlook seems bleak
but Conscious says the mist is made-believe

in due time, i rest as i should, like every person would
yet complacency delays my time to move
as i tread the waters, i find myself drifting towards the vast unknown
where the quitters lay dead, where the stench keeps me awake
plagued by laziness, reeked of complacency
paralyzed i became, only the eyes surfacing the water
fears flocked towards me during my final breath
undesirable as it is, but is this the end??

when all hope seems lost, a short spasm stabs my back
it is the calling, time to get back on track

to prevent repetitions of such events, maybe it's time to just swim
only aim should accompany, and nothing else should matter
i think it's best that i replicate Faust now,
but keeping in mind that everything's temporary
my desire must be precise, the rest should be steered away
this risk should release much burden, but it won't assure things
in the crossroads, in the water i stay afloat
the clock is ticking, the heart is racing
in this final sprint, the routes i shall question
for what it's worth, is it worth it?

"every skyline beats in my chest
somewhere between love and sadness
this is our fate, this is our test
we ride in the mouth of madness"

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 10:13 PM

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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

A smile, a grin, and another cloud comes in...

"people don't like you, is it??"
never thought that a question so poorly constructed would sound so harsh
my vision blurried, a probable jet black stare on the pages of the magazine
i could almost imagine my heart being swallowed by darkness
as i masked my inner feelings with a wry smile
i could only helplessly think about the true opinions of my...
well...companions...
damn...

"well don't talk about it;
write it down but don't ask for help.
i can't be honest with even myself.
did you ever wish you were...
did you ever wish you were...
did you ever wish you were somebody else?"

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 9:48 PM

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Thursday, August 06, 2009

Back from the dead??

apologies to whoever who has been patiently waiting for another post to appear
actually, nothing much really happened throughout the weeks
except for consecutive days of meeting insects on weird occasions
and a tuesday midnight in the toilet with a bloody big mosquito-like creature, about the size of my palm, which i squashed between a folded newspaper
that creature was like some kind of mutated creature from the sink or something
(think ninja turtles)
its legs could not even support the weight of the body. how weird...
i wanted to pee, and that creature probably wanted to suck
well, maybe opposites do attract

besides than, been kinda busy during the exam period
exam, sleep, eat, bro's laptop, study, sleep, repeat
and that is life, people
that is definitely life...

well, at least today marks the end of prelims
which is a huge sigh of relief for us sec4 express unitians
throughout the week, i kinda kept to myself most of the time
early morning rituals of listening to some nasyid
errm, i don't really know how to explain this type of music
but it basically keeps me calm, so my mind would be free from unnecessary thoughts during the exam
usually went straight home after the papers
and probably the only girl i talked to was xinying
and that was merely a few sentences on some of the days
call me sexist, call me anti-social
but yeah, that was what happened
kinda creepy though, yet nothing to worry about

today was pretty much a good day
played floorball to get rid of all the stress 'residues'
then, went out for a moment, tried to find something for ibu for her birthday
but to no avail
well, at least d cake was bought, by sis
dinner at around 8+, as usual
had a whopping feast
spaghetti, roasted chicken, keropok lekor which my eldest sis bought from terengganu
the strawberry ice-cream cake
tummy filled to the brim, without a doubt

well, that was pretty much my day
happy birthday ibu!
thanks for all that you've ever done for the family
love you!
and also, happy birthday mally's mom!
(mally's mom, has got it goin on...)

and this is finished right on midnight.

. .. ... . .. rock evolution* 10:58 PM

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